Doing Too Much

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Overwhelm is a sneaky beast. Since we started quarantining I’ve posted about stress, shortcomings, feeling like certain things were overwhelming me and starting to get to me but just last night and this morning I hit a real, solid wall. A heart-racing, head-pounding, impatient about everything, just not coping, stressed out, just Done feeling. I just had/have nothing left. So, I’m taking a step back, I’m taking a breath, and I’m taking time for me to actually try to relax and not just sort of fuck off and kill time. I need a schedule that will let me breathe, let me be off the hook for work a LOT. I only work part time, how is that creeping into every waking moment of my life? I need to destress. So I’m going to make some changes:

  • I’m going to work 4 hours a day, 3 days a week instead of averaging 2 or so hours a day on week days and odds and ends all weekend.
  • Part of that will mean I work 4 hours every other Saturday and pick 2-3 week days to work and let it go the rest of the time.
  • I am going to schedule my meals, breakfast and lunch and I’m going to drink more water.
  • I am going to schedule time to be outside, get some sun and fresh air, daily if possible.
  • I am giving myself a reading hour with a book, some herbal tea, and quiet.
  • I’m upping my fruit and veg intake.
  • I’ve already cut my caffeine intake in half. (from 2 cups to 1 cup/day)
  • Once I feel less stressed I’m going to work on scheduling family activities again. Having those on the regular would be great for all of us.
  • I’ve just started following the BUJO Journal along on Instagram and I’m going to continue that because I think it’s helping.
  • I may take naps, like we did in kindergarten, even if I don’t sleep during them.
  • I’m going to take the time to appreciate and acknowledge all that I am so lucky to have. I may journal about that here in segments that make sense to me, probably only to me. LOL

We’ll see how this goes. I need to find a way to stick with it, or stick with whatever I can find that works, I’m bad at sticking with schedules. I’m a free-spirit and I like my flexible, chaotic whimsy but that non-system approach to life has broken down under the strain of the pandemic. Time to try something new.

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I am a lover of books and the written word, of art and nature. I love to paint, to write, to read, to knit, crochet and to game. I aspire to garden but am terrible at it. I finally got mint to grow! (yes MINT) & Golden Raspberries! I am a whimsical free spirit shouldering great weight with as much fire and energy as I can muster.

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  2. Hi Outside Perception, great to hear from you again. ^_^ BUJO is short for Bullet Journaling. It’s this weirdly flexible system you adapt to your needs to keep yourself organized, set priorities, keep track of schedules, etc etc etc. The write along I’m following right now is on the instagram account, but there is a dedicated website, a book, etc. The BUJO I am talking about is the one by the original creator Ryder Carroll, but there are many, many, many ideas out there. Ryder’s is utilitarian, basic, meant to be helpful and efficient. A lot of other BUJO ideas out there incorporate tons of creative expression which you will quickly discover if you do a google search for images of bullet journal spreads. Sorry, that’s my short version of what a BUJO is! ^_^

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